I’ve written the following personal journal entry on April 22nd, 2025 – on the day I started drawing a bold, personal piece that I’m proud of (see the link to the full drawing below).
Lately I’ve been reflecting a lot on my artistic process. One recurring theme is the question: how do I create just for myself? Not for the models. Not for the algorithm. Not for likes or sales. But for the inner child who wants to play – to have fun.
I’ve noticed that working with color brings me joy. I had neglected it recently, mostly because it takes time – and the feed is always waiting, as are my models. But joy doesn’t follow deadlines.
I’ve also found a kind of liberation in drawing explicit images. Not to provoke, but to dare. To break through inner boundaries and soften old restraints.
So this morning, instead of doing what was expected – finishing commissions, prepping the next post – I chose joy. I chose color. I followed the instinct to merge sensuality and art, to let them become one. This bold reference by Hannah inspired me to do it, to go for it and dive in.
This drawing isn’t for Instagram. It’s not for ego or approval. It’s just me, wanting to feel again – with no filter.
